if you sit around pondering ways to extract the response you want, you'll be sadly disappointed. you really can't make someone in your image... in your mind's ideal. impossible. however, you can change your ideal. when you understand another it's quite easy to shift desire toward their qualities. at the same time, you'd risk loosing sight of your own objectives... your needs... wants. so, a tender balance it's being weighed. you battle your mind and suffocate your heart... or... you ignore your mind and unbutton your heart. mine would pound a million beats per minute to have the ease of innocence. i think i could easily slip into love... given the proper subject, of course. but, i keep my eyes on my heart. i keep my reserve in my hands and mind on my shoulder.

so..... i have asked myself... can i keep me and have you too? hmmm... doubtful. but, i can't fail if i don't try. wait... exactly... i can't fail if i don't try. so what if i fail? what if i fall? who's there to catch me? who will wipe the sweat from my brow. who will mend me. these are not questions. i know the answers. i also know this answer: who do i want to dust me off.