freedom

is it so wrong for me to long for freedom? is it so wrong to want NOT to be responsible for another's feelings? all the fucking time? is that so wrong?

i can't be anyone's rock. i can't be anyone's everything. it's too fucking overwhelming. i can barely keep myself from slipping into despair. i need to keep my feelings to me. i need to close my eyes. i need to close my eyes and trap my essence within me. if i let it go, what will i become? what will i end up being? nothing. i will be drained of all the spirit within me. i cannot give it away; it is mine to keep. never again. never again.

my eyes wide-open
have left
my body struggling coping.

cradling my spirit
i'll trap
my love where i won't fear it.