i was driving yesterday in the rain. i was thinking of the new direction my life is headed, and the other places it's been. i've spent a lot of time with people who didn't share the same goals as i. some have had goals of career and self growth. things like appearance, travel and position were more important to them. i was labeled as "unambitious". but, my ambition is focused in another, more important area of life... LOVE. how pointless would a trip to Italy or Peru seem if you had no one with which to share it and no one to tell your stories with you? how silly would your fortune be if you lived in a house not full of family, but servants? how foolish to rely on your looks... when they fade.

LOVE. this is where i will succeed. i will build a mountain of it and be rich. i won't swim in one hundred dollar bills, but soak in bubble bathes of kisses. i will be the more fortunate one.

and, finally, i've found someone who feels the same. so, i drove down the road listening to the rain hit the window and thought of all the mistakes i've made that led me astray... it hit me. this is always where i've been headed. i wasn't ready yet. i just took the route of lessons because i had to learn a few before i could be ready. i'm ready now.