feeling. FEELING these emotions are things i've been waiting for... all my life. i was not aware of the things i REALLY wanted and needed. growth is a tremendous feeling. i'm learning so many things. self worth is the most important. i have loved, and lost. i've had friends i've lost. it's all very sad. these people are not easily forgotten. i'm learning to deal with grief. not internally... but not outwardly either. i'm learning where to find solace. i'm learning about the people that matter. i'm learning how to hold on to those people. i'm just learning. and it's a great feeling. i feel liberated. i'm overjoyed with excitement for my future. it can hold so many things... great things. my most important goal? that when people meet me... get to know me... they REALLY know me. no one will be mistaken of who i am. i have no desire to be mysterious. no more will i bend and shift. i am who i am... and, shit, i like me. i'm happy.