Sunday, October 25, 2009

sleep is evil

sleep. sleep eludes me on numerous occasions. i can never seem to get there no matter how tired i am. i spend about 30 minutes tweaking a play list... then, another ten arranging the pillows to where it doesn't feel like i'm alone. then, my mind starts to do forceful dreaming or awake dream as i like to call it. i go through so my different scenarios. sometimes i think about awful things and i'm not certain the reason. this can last an hour or more. then, if i finally do fall asleep, my mind is forced into dreams i can't control. sometimes they wake me. sometimes they confuse me even more. sometimes they wake me and i don't remember them... just that i wanted to be out of them. so if they wake me this whole cycle starts again!!! GAH! i just need some rest.

i don't get enough rest.

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