heavy

it's a shame such happiness can bring such dread. i touch the fire... again. i'm certain i'd bite it if i could. fuck the fact that it'd burn my lips off. i'd eat that fire. i'd relish in it. later, i'll have a stomach ache. i am the epitome of over indulgence. i'd like to always be rational... think with my head. but, far too often my heart butts in... she's pushy, convincing, and easily weighed down to a heavy load only a lonely girl like me could carry. so much goes on in my life, but her pounding is louder than any siren. she's all i think about. sigh.

and, sadly, i am defined in so few words.

You are the loneliest girl in the world- Cary Brothers

You are the loneliest girl in the world
Taking your hits as they come
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And tonight you'd fall for anyone

It's in the way you fall down to bed
It's in the way you cry when he's not looking

You are the loneliest girl in the world
I'll watch you die a thousand times again
You are the loneliest girl in the world
And I just want to make it go away
And I just want to make it go away