in my gloomy gloaming

a frightening feeling and
my heart's increased its pace.
afraid your leaving
is impossible to erase.

a few sentences poison,
like decaying blood.
a brief chapter closing?
while my tear ducts flood.

relief on one end,
terror on another.
our perfection perforated.
a flimsy disguise uncovered.

pushing on one end,
pulling on another.
potential progress paid. but,
intentions left undiscovered.

my eggshells remain sliced
and semi-broken.
confusion repressed
and heart's mending sunken.

i'll cry secret tears
and peel hidden layers away.
i'll hope your fears
don't lock my heart in dismay.

i'll hope... for hope,
and stand on the sideline.
i'll jump in when you need me,
to devour your disincline.

i'll keep tiny pieces you've earned
to barter and trade
for shards of your trust
'till our reluctance, fades.


.........................................................................................................
he o'ertook my desire
with rainwashed and sunbaked memories...
i became fallacy.
and somewhere,
in my heart,
the riot softened.