my eyelids are weighted with the events of this week past. it's been... draining. in every way. my strength called into question, my intentions doubted, my life judged, my endurance for car travel tested (proven), and... most draining, and somehow comforting, my desires tempted.

like dried leaves rustling the wind
our distinct colors bleed and blend

my breath clings
with your heart's strings

i exhale to feel their tightening
with tension frightening

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i desire more than just your affection. respect, adoration, admiration are other things i'd like.

i miss you before you leave. i want to keep pieces of you with me, if that is all that is available. tonight, i'd like to keep your hands. they are kind in their pleasing. i'd like to keep your eyes. they are open and warm.

i'm "perfectly tired" and perfectly speechless.

i sleep not to dream. but, rather, to wake to a new day that may see you in it.