new things

this... is this. this is simple. i type... you read. it doesn't get easier. i can write endlessly. if only it would always stay simple. i'll close the monitor, and a million feelings rush back. a million feelings... fears... terrors even, hit me. hard. a year is a long time. maybe i'll figure this out. maybe i will. maybe i'll know where i'll go. maybe i'll drift. i'll be a drifter... ha a female drifter. i may have to learn to play the guitar. i wonder how i'll finance it? free lance? free lance, what... is an appropriate question. we'll see.