don't make the mistake of asking some one to digest your actions. you'll be disappointed. they say they won't judge. they say it's not their place. they lie. no one will understand you, like you.
you'd like to think... you'd try not to repeat your mistakes. it's all i want. i want to be wrong. being right, hurts. being right makes me feel like a fraud. i can't be her. i can't be her.

fallible
are my temerarious
decisions

i'll pretend... for far too long. possibly waste myself. then, i'll try to recover. i'll try to forget. i'll try to forget.................. that i can't remember.

What I Cannot Change - Leann Rimes

I know what makes me comfortable
And I know what makes me tick
And I when I need to get my way
I know how to pour it on thick

Cream and sugar in my coffee
Right away when I awake
I face the day, and pray to God
I won’t make the same mistakes

All the rest is out of my hands

I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, yeah I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can

Yeah I don’t know my father
Or my mother well enough
It seems like every time we talk
We can’t get past the little stuff

The pain is self-inflicted
I know it’s not good for my health
But it’s easier to please the world
Than it is to please myself

All the rest is out of my hands

I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change,
yeah I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can

Right now I can’t care about how everyone else really feels
I have enough hurt of my own to heal

I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, yeah I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can