i can't remember the moment it was lost. the acrid feeling crept upon me, and i don't know the moment. was is a moment? or was it a plethora of moments? was it the obsequious nature? or diffident manners? i'd like to track it. i'd like to see if i can avoid it. i'd like to know if i want to avoid it. i'd like to quit my repining. i'd like to sit and watch a day go by without a woeful remark or sigh. alas, i'm left with this ineffectual speech and lewd lifestyle. at any moment i could irrupt with accidental meditated deviation. i could destroy myself. i don't want to take you with me. my slope is steep and the rashness of my actions shake it's unsturdy surface. don't stand so close to me. my dissolute mien may sink us. i abominate. i protest. i release. i give in. i give in. and. i give up.
Questions- Brandon Rhyder
if you feel in the water
would you sink or swim
or come up for air
to breathe again
i ask myself this question
every single day
if your lover left you
left you all alone
the pain that you feel
it hurt to the bone
would you love again
i ask myself this question
time and time again
as the glass that you hold
down falls to the floor
the answer you held
doesn't fit anymore
and that painting on the wall
is another shade
you don't know how it got that way
it's not wrong or right
to feel this way
will you love again
will you be betrayed
they're just answers to questions
we don't know
i know one day i'm gonna die
but today
i live for the ride
if you had a good friend
since you were a child
could you depend on them
if you were in a bind
i ask myself this question
every once in a while
if jesus called you
said "it's time to come home
is there anything here
that you've left undone"
oh, i ask myself this question
way too much
as the glass that you hold
down falls to the floor
the answer you held
doesn't fit anymore
that painting on your wall
is another shade
you don't know how it got that way
it's not wrong or right
to feel this way
will you love again
will you be ashamed
they're just answers to questions
we don't know
i know one day
i'm gonna die
but today
i live for the ride
bridges wash away
and some bridges get burned
there's a whole book of lessons
hell, that i haven't learned
when you look across the water
to the other side
will you be all alone
or will you turn the tide
it's not wrong or right
to feel this way
will you love again
will you be betrayed
they're just answers to questions
we don't know
i know one day i'm gonna die
but today
i live for the ride
